Change

Well it is my favourite time of the year: Autumn. And a lot of things are changing, as usually happens this time of the year. Everyone heads back to school, church ministries start afresh, and creation colours as if a seasonal sun had begun its routine setting, throwing his rays of colour across the country, until at last he tips his hat to the audience, stealing away with warmth in tow.

I find these days lend themselves to personal reflection. Where I am, where I am going, what I will do when I get there, when will I stop using run-on sentences... You know the usual. And to be perfectly honest, I'm kinda scared about it all. Probably more than anything I'm scared of what I don't know, or don't understand. And since I know very little, and understand less than I would like to believe of the things I do know, I am very thankful that Christ upholds me, sustains me, and intercedes for me. I need only dwell on Him in order to wash my fears away, for what shall I fear when Christ is in the forefront of my mind?

I think my favourite Hymn sums it up.

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

..."thou my best thought, by day or by night".

Why is it I spend time trying to do or say the best possible things, yet spend no comparable ammount of time thinking about the best possible thing? Pride. For human beings can perceive actions and words, but not thoughts. Honest words and deeds flow from honest thoughts. Think on Christ more urgently, more diligently, and more fully, and your words and actions will change to include Christ proportionally to how much you think on Him. I say urgently, because there is a lack of desperation in my heart; A lack of dependance upon the sufficiency of Christ. I say diligently because there is a lack of consistency in my thoughts of Christ, and I say more fully, because there is a lack of depth to my thoughts of Christ. Some changes are being made this Autumn, and I pray that the Lord would keep me mindful of Himself above all else.